Tuesday, February 20, 2007
okay.. everything is jus caving down on me isn't it.. everything is just wanting to make me fall.. as if school is not enough.. external pressures.. everything else.. why.. someone tell me why is my life lyk tat...
u know.. i really am sorry for all those people who know me.. who have been trying to cheer me up and things lyk tat? i wonder if u guys ever regret knowing such a guy lyk me.. cos...yea.. i agree wif someone.. that i am a screw up life.. i have a screwd up life..
i mean how dumb can i get.. i was supposed to rmb smt.. by sunday night 7pm at least.. but i didn't.. i was supposed to remember to do the CHEMISTRY TEST!!! and guess when did i even remember it.. when did i rmb it... todae! just about 2 hrs ago! im lyk worshipping myself already..amazed at my wonderful memory.. lol.. not funny..
even as im typing this now.. i am lyk pressing on the keys so heavily.. maybe i can even hear them screaming in pain.. especially the enter key lar.. yea.. ok..im really mad now..
honestly.. just whats wrong wif me.. why is my life wanting lyk that.. im on the verge of giving up already alright.. as in yea.. how many times have i seriously thought about suicide.. for the past 1 month? abt 3 times.. alright..3 times.. be it going to the kitchen and getting a knife.. or opening the window grilles of my room and u know.. enjoying a cable-less flying fox down 9 storeys..
going back to school again tmr.. ha.. gonna literally drag myself again or smt..
i wonder if u are ever EVER gonna talk to me again? this question was NEVER and i mean never.. meant to spite u..
(12:56 PM)