Sunday, September 27, 2009
it has been a REALLY long time since i last blogged.. and it was on friday that i told myself i need to update my blog over this weekend.. or i doubt i wld be able to blog anymore until the end of As.. which wld be quite a tragic thing..
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honestly.. i just don't know where to begin.. so much has happened.. so much to say.. well lets just talk from the fact that prelims are over.. although they are over.. it doesn't really feel like it's over.. well needless to say that it's due to the fact that it just translates to a vision of A levels drawing even nearer.. or maybe it's just having to face getting back the results and look at them stare back into your face.. and wham.. u get smacked in the face.. the week after prelims.. getting back of a few results here and there.. but nt having gotten back the scripts to actually check the marks.. well.. it can be quite anticipating.. but yet it can be quite dreadful..
thankful for a grp of friends whom i can meet up and engage in meaningful and joyous conversation.. taking my mind away from studies.. and stuffs.. that gathering was indeed a breather for me..
mankind has one very powerful weapon.. and weapon here could have both positive and negative implications to it.. but yeah.. that weapon is a smile.. it could brighten up someone's day.. it brings people to a more personal level.. and more imptly.. it enables people to be more willing to relate to u.. (well thats what i personally feel.. u can't expect someone to talk to u if u are all frowning and sulking right?) thats the harsh reality of this world.. we all move at such an amazing pace.. our lives just revolves around ourselves.. like how many people are going to stop and look around to see if anyone's being left behind.. few and far between.... and so back to smiling.. it cld be a weapon used to your advantage.. but what happens if u use it wrongly? or even worse.. with a wrong intention? a smile to others should only and solely be a true reflection of your own feelings towards others.. it shouldn't be something that is forced.. neither should it be a routine.. or smiling wld have lost its meaning.. but it's true isn't it.. everyone tends to put on a front.. pretend that everything is fine.. and beam so widely at the slightest of things.. but all these fronts are only going to make the world a more deceptive place.. then again.. it's how you would interpret a smile isn't it? i guess everyone smiles.. whether it be a true reflection of our current emotion.. or in a momentary outburst of happiness.. but some smile to hide their weak self.. they just simply refuse to show to others what they truly are.. and all these arise because of fear... fear of being looked down upon.. fear of losing the closest people around you.. fear of having to face disappointment to the very simplest of hopes you place in yourself..
but is this tatamount to deceiving? when will the world be genuinely true? true to itself.. and true to everyone around..
it is only in our weakness that we find a source of strength.. for if we are nt weak.. we wouldn't know what it means to be strong.... but are we going to admit that we are weak and work towards being strong.. or act as though we are strong but in actual fact we are all frail and weak inside..
it's interesting to see how LOVE could bring 2 people together.. but it would be tragic to see a couple so loving fall out with each other..
it's interesting to see how TRUST is built and maintained between friends.. but sad to see how it cld be lost and perhaps never regained again..
it's time to forget our differences.. no point harping on differences as it would only strike a distance between u and everyone around.. work together towards compromise.. although u can NEVER be someone who is well-liked and approved by everyone, always bear in mind the fundamental instincts of humans which is also widely demonstrated in animals.. (we are afterall animals) we need to relate, co-exist, interact..... we need one another.....
lets solve our differences in peaceful conversation.. lets put aside our differences and move on from how far we have come..
(8:13 AM)