Sunday, August 17, 2008
Happy Birthday Isabelle!! =D
15/8
wishing u a very very happy birthday!! may u experience much joy and happiness as you turn 1 year older.. and that u'll experience God's richest blessings from above... stay happy always! (:
there's definitely no better way to start a blog post on a high.. and prevent yourself from sinking under as much as possible..
indeed it has been quite some time again since i last blogged.. although it wasn't as bad as the previous wan where i took 1 month to blog a post..
school life again? no.. don't want to talk about it.. the very fact that im actually doing this now shows such a clear reflection that i am neglecting it..
not to mention that promos are drawing nearer and nearer as each day passes..
went to watch a concert on saturday night.. meeting up with a few primary school frens lyk zh, dickson and simon.. it's reali great to see your primary sch frens again.. esp. after such a long period of time.. and so the concert was a dance eprformance by dance ensemble of Singapore.. it was rather great.. wld hav been better if u knew how to appreciate dance of course..
jus a short reflection frm tt night.. even if it were the slightest thing.. don't regret.. i never liked the feeling of regret.. and i don't want to regret doing smt.. or nt doing smt..
anyway.. went back to km's house to do econs proj after that.. having brought all my "camping overnight stuff.." and so after chionging econs through the night.. we cld hav slept arnd 4.. but we slept at 6 and woke up at approx 8.. getting ready to go to church.. after church.. it's back to km's house again.. this time for pw meeting..
reducing all the elaboration.. here i am with only 2hours of sleep still blogging away.. i dont even know how i managed to do this.. i mus hv gone mad or smt.. altho yeah.. im beginning to feel reali queasy now.. sighs..
well.. notice my blog post title and u'll obviously think that it's going to be an emo post.. without fail.. yes.. it's lyk there are so many things racing through my mind.. so much uncertainty.. doubt.. it just feels as though i don't know whats going on in my life.. i cant even control my own life..
going to hav much lesser time to blog now.. going for night study sessions.. going to start refocusing and everything.. if thats even possible..
(11:32 PM)
Saturday, August 09, 2008
finally blogging again! lyk whoa.. 3 weeks since i last posted or smt.. that must be madness!
but seriously.. the past 3 weeks were reali quite hectic.. lets jus sae a little bit to summarise each week of the past 3 weeks..
1st week.. four nights of sleeping at 2am in a row.. break record!
2nd week.. two nights of sleeping at 4am in a row.. break record AGAIN!
3rd week.. CAs and CAs.. and just literally dragging of myself to sch.. and yeah.. having to survive each day in sch.. lyk sheeesh.. going to school has lost its meaning.. and that SO shouldn't be the case..
of cos in between there were days that reali meant alot to me.. lyk last saturday.. and this friday.. yep.. meaningful.. nt that i wld lyk to elaborate.. but yeah.. those 2 days reali meant alot to me..
today.. woke up at arnd 8.30.. and had breakfast.. went down to bishan for piano lesson.. only to find out that today no piano lesson.. yes yes.. it's national day.. and it's meant to b a public holiday.. but me and my sis were told to go down for make-up lessons.. and when we went all the way down dere.. dey were lyk having meeting.. so we were told to go home lorr.. what a waste of time.. cld have slept longer too...
caught up on alot of rest today.. slept lyk too much ler la.. lyk frm 3.30 or smt all the way till close to 7.. excessive sleep seh.. but it was reali shuang.. but at the same time it's lyk shuang until nt shuang already.. missed the first hour or so of the NDP parade.. den woke up feeling quite blur blur abt wat was going on..
this year's wan was reali quite nice.. especially wif it being on the floating platform and all.. i think the nicest was the fighter planes lor.. as in wahh.. the part they flew here and dere and everywhere.. was jus so cool.. the patterns.. the stunts.. awesome.. yep.. fireworks were of cos nice.. but then u see.. cos every year.. how nice the fireworks are also will have a limit de lor.. ya.. but this year's highlight is definitely those what they call the Black Knights.. coolio!
and so it's lyk i spent the whole of today at home.. sleeping.. doing some work.. and yeah.. most imptly.. spending some time wif the family.. haven't spent much time wif the family also.. ever since wat happened since 2 mondays ago.. i mus say tt my family and esp my mum has been affected quite abit.. and i haven't doing much for my family too.. sighs..
well.. i guess i reali hav to think alot about wats going on in my life.. in terms of the social.. the mental.. physical.. and spiritual.. how often did i actually pause to think about these things that were going on in my mind.. in my life..
i reali want to stop emoing so much.. i reali want to stop thinking so much.. i reali want to set my life out aright.. and yeah.. jus sort myself out..
sometimes i reali wonder whats wrong with me.......
(12:21 AM)