Sunday, May 25, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT! =D
24/05
and i finally managed to start blogging.. i wonder why.. it's alr 12.30am.. when i switched on the com at lyk wat.. 9.30... gosh...
okay..term2 comes to a close.. and a not-going-to-be-able-to-survive term3 is going to start sooner or later.. pw.. mid-years.. pw.. pw.. and more pw.. it's gonna b packed.. as we hav already been told..
well.. just about realised.. i actually don't blog that often.. once a week.. yeah.. but it feels rather often to me.. but oh well.. doesnt realli matter that much..
i guess it's jus gonna b a... lets say.... emo time again.. i mean lyk thats what i literally do.. in my blog posts.. just allow thoughts and emotions to flow.......................
well.. i realli realli am beginning to believe that i seriously care too much.. for my own good.. it's lyk messing myself up.. yar.. i probably don't even need to go to that extent.. but when i do.. i end up thinking and thinking and thinking.. and now looking back at myself.. i just know that i shouldn't b thinking that far.. just wonder wats making me think lyk a gone-mad person..
so how do u get used to not doing something that u were so used to doing.. it's lyk suddenly a usual part of your routine or smt vanquishes.. and den u just get "crippled" by that fact dat u can't do the same thing that u are so used to doing.. and it just creates an empty feeling inside of u.. smt that cannot reali b replaced by other stuff.. indulge in things to do? and don't think about it? it'll take much more than that..
and somehow.. the feeling of emptiness and loneliness just caves in again.. nvr felt this way for quite some time ler.. and dis time again.. it's rather strong.. has nvr been dis strong for quite some time now.. looking back at all the past.. it's lyk definitely.. dey hav all played a part in what u have become todae.. and yar.. it just shapes u..
perhaps this is one of my shortest posts ever? lol.. can't rmb when's the last time i posted smt dis short..
attempting nt to think.... i must be ambitious or smt..
(12:45 AM)