Friday, February 22, 2008
okay.. haven realli posted since a long long time.. and really.. looking back at the past month.. spent in SRJC.. and now.. the past 3 days in CJ.. a new phase of life.. life has to move on.. but why... why do i feel so amazingly mixed up.. in all kinds of weird thoughts.. literally.. past few days.. i have been thinking and thinking.. thinking until i can actually get a headache.. and of course in the process.. it feels lyk i wld rather my head explode or smt..
first day in cj.. really wasn't very ideal.. take it that it was the transition.. or whatever.. it really was quite bad.. just thinking and thinking to myself.. i don't really have much against cj.. perhaps just a little here and dere.. i know.. it's a reasonably good jc.. and i shld count myself lucky that i got in.. even though it's not my top3 choices.. compared to others who want to get in but have to appeal in.. but really.. my mind is filled with thoughts and thoughts.. how i wish there was a function for me to do selective thinking..
settling in? perhaps abit.. lyk to an extent.. but it's restricted by factors.. lyk my mum.. and etc. etc. okay... i think my mind just broke down.. i don't really know how to carry on frm here..
just earlier on.. i really was blanking out.. just lying down on my bed.. and not knowing wat to do.. not knowing how to move on from here.. feeling so helpless.. still thinking alot abt sr.. just on thursday.. i went down to mj.. met up wif shawn as he was posted dere.. had a short emo talk before i had to go down to ny frm dere.. and in the process.. i passed by sr.. and sitting down dere waiting for a bus to change to.. looking at the exterior.. thoughts and memories of 1S02 just kept flowing in.. so it's lyk yeah.. emotions just started gushing in..
at this point.. i realised i nver really posted abt 1S02.. so i'll do just that now..
looking back at lectures, breaks, lunch breaks, tutorials, and CT periods.. throughout the one month in sr.. my life totally revolved around u guys.. in no order of merit..
Latif.. someone u can nvr really keep quiet with.. yup.. helped chun jie in opening up to the class.. dunking of him in dustbins.. getting bullied by weixiong.. yeah..
Wan Qin.. a little quiet but nonetheless contributes to the spirit of the class.. performed during CNY celebrations! lyk how many J1s 1st intakers would do that..
Matthew.. good buddy.. someone really good to be close to... first time having special feelings for someone.. thinking and thinking about it.. (:
Shawn.. one time emo.. one time rawker.. nonetheless a very good fren to hav.. nvr fails to care for those around him.. a leader in his own ways.. and a unique laughter (:
Wei Yang.. yang meh meh.. singing and singing.. doing his drawings on lecture notes or tutorial notes.. plugging into his earphones and emo-ing away.. taupok king.. wif matthew as the common victim.. irritating ppl.. poke poke poke.. will rmb having tau huey wif him.. (:
Donovan.. dua2 jia4.. rolling around.. hah.. though u might feel kinda away frm the class.. hope u noe that it's always great to hav u in 1S02.. and that u will always be a part of 1S02..
Chun Jie.. u guided me in doing the rubix cube!! so in a way.. my rubix cube shifu.. and the chun jie move!!! eat more arh.. so skinny.. train more.. and lyk yeah.. don't always play computer k?
Mashuk.. hand itchy den will start to draw right.. although they were mostly scribblings.. haha.. but it was still great to hav known u.. be more confident of urself.. u r a leader in your own way..
Shaun.. regretted never really speaking much to u.. but always u wld still b smiling.. and being ur own usual quiet self.. open up more! yeah..
Phoebe.. shld hav talked to u more.. piano! and rubix cube.. always cheerful and smiley.. yup.. wld u remember me after 5 years? lol.. (:
Rebecca..bubbly.. the smiles.. and guitar sessions.. dumb blonde jokes.. yeah.. someone great to talk to.. and nvr failing to make others around u happy.. (:
Jin Wen.. chess! and always laughing away at marcus.. haha.. perhaps it wld be alot better if u spoke more on your part.. yup.. and always enjoyed talking to u.. even though it even were for a little bit..
Jeremy.. ur gayish behaviour.. and random comments in class.. definitely contributes to the spirit of the class.. hand stands.. and keeping urself fit.. really self-disciplined..
Marcus.. one thing i'll definitely rmb.. first thing u said.. on day 1.. anti-social.. well look at u now.. haha.. ur favourite word used.. and stuff lyk that.. haha.. u'll always be the walking cartoon i noe.. of course.. dun mean to be mean..
Nikita.. bubbly and cheerful personality.. be more careful during PE.. yup.. take care of the knee..
Emeline.. char siew.. lol.. i never really knew why.. but yeah.. great to hav known u.. and great to hav been in e same class as u..
Wan Ting.. always cheerful and smiling away.. will rmb u kicking yang meh meh while emeline actually pinched his butt.. lol.. dun really know why u all did that for..but yeah.. taking bus back wif u on a couple of occasions.. yup.. catching the zi high syndrome from... u know.. CAL
Xing Yun.. L fan.. aka. CAL.. as u and yang meh meh always hav smt wif each other.. realli lar.. nvr had any pian jian against u.. continue to be urself.. and yeah.. dun spread the zi high syndrome.. will always rmb the triangle incident.. freaky! (:
Denise.. yeah.. some special moments to rmb.. and always trying to talk to everyone in the class.. most active organiser for class outings.. and i must sae.. ur efforts are really appreciated.. active participant of dai di games.. and class photographer.. sharing of sweets during some lectures.. really cool.. rawk on.. (:
Wei Xiong.. class CT... always flexing away.. and cracking jokes about.. naming wan ting hippo or smt? yeah.. haha.. oh well.. fun guy to be with.. happy-go-lucky.. yup..
Nithin.. regretted not having talked more with u.. u really are cool.. someone special.. and rawk on mann.. hav ur play time.. but not too long too.. yeah.. so stay cool.. all the best!!
will post the pictures up some other time.. don't really have the time to do it now.. getting quite late.. long dae ahead of me tmr.. sighs..
well.. as a matter of fact.. i really regret not talking wif everyone more.. probably it wasn't really possible too.. given the amount of time we could spend wif each other.. but yeah.. really.. 1 month.. it's fast.. sighs.. definitely want to keep in close contact wif all of u ppl.. and really miss u ppl alot.. of course more of those whom i'm closer to.. yeah.. human nature..
okay.. to sum it all up.. i really have been thinking alot alot alot lately.. and yeah.. to an extent that i actually got lyk a perpetual headache kind of thing.. and yeah.. jus so wanted my head to blow up or smt.. how i wish.. i could be less emo.. how i wish.. i could think less..
lead the way.. guide me.. and help me through this big hurdle in my life..
(11:11 PM)