well.. i really honestly want to declare out loud.. and perhaps tell everyone else on this planet.. and maybe other planets as well.. im the biggest loser.. the most screwed up guy around anywhere in this universe.. galaxy, milky way.. etc..

first reason.. i went back to school.. practically becos i had nth better to do.. can u beat that? who can be such a person lyk me? really.. i actually had a choice to do smt else.. but yea..didnt want to.. it wld hv been window-shopping.. and im not much of that shopping sort.. yar.. anyway..i am glad i dint go cos kkm said it's lyk his legs nearly broke and yar.. i think i wldnt be able to hold out as much as them.. so yar..went back to sch.. and ended up seeing so many other sec4 prefects.. it hoenstly wasnt planned to meet at all.. and nearly the entire exco was there.. yup.. actually primary purpose was to study.. and yup..ended up studying in the sch canteen which was pathetic.. and not much came out of it.. played soccer after 3 hrs of studying.. and basketball..jus to unwind abit..after which we left for home together..

second reason.. i find myself so caught up with things.. as in letting them affect me so much.. WHY!!! people have already gone on ahead wif life.. why am i the only wan still holding on.. still reaching out.. to smt that is going further and further away frm u.. which is practically.. stupid? ridiculous? honestly mann.. wats wrong wif me.. can someone tell me? i so badly wanna study psychology now.. so tt i know why am i thinking liddat now.. sighx..

but it was a special saturday for me.. two days ago.. yup.. it was farewell for our exco.. 06/07.. it was kinda saddening.. as in yar.. sad.. but they made it quite nice.. quite cheerful..light and hearty atmosphere.. which really didn't make me think abt the sad part much.. and yup..it was first the ceremony.. during the ceremony.. it was rather cool.. seating arrangement and all.. exchanging of gifts.. seats and removing of the ties.. tat part.. was a bit yeah.. direct.. but nonetheless.. the sec4s amongst ourselves we had fun telling each other how much better we look without our ties.. perhaps we are just used to seeing each other without our ties on.. yeah.. and after which was reception.. fruit punch was good.. took plenty of pictures.. and yea.. taupok-ing one another.. hai.. after ceremony.. most of us went to play soccer.. at the tennis court..den change to field.. den change to basketball court.. all of which were cool sia.. the sec4s teamed up and played against the rest.. outnumbered lyk siao but still managed to win.. haha.. tt was at the field and tennis court.. and when we were at the bb court.. we played league.. again the sec4s teamed up.. and played against two other teams in lyk knockout liddat lar.. and we kept winning them.. until we won 7 matches in a row.. and haha.. yup..at the end of everything.. exhausted.. dinner was extremely good.. at sakura international buffet restaurant.. good food sia.. and a really eye-opener for me.. and so..after dinner.. we went to play arcade.. abit..i didnt play lar.. u know.. im not an arcade kinda person.. after that we made our way back to sch.. but i went somewhere else.. after which i met the remaining sec4s who were staying overnight at marine cove the bowling centre there.. and we bowled until 2.30am sia.. cool right..and we ran into 2 police cars.. one of which the guy inside kept staring at us when he drove past us very slowly in the marine cove carpark.. and since no transport.. we had to walk all the way back to sch.. which lasted for lyk 45 mins.. and yar..by the time we got back to sch..we were all sweaty.. somehow the main gate wasn locked..and so we entered through there.. ended up sleeping only at 6.30 am sia.. and i woke up at 8 preparing to leave..and my father came to pick me up..
generally.. i jus wanna thank the exco of VSPB 07/08 for the great farewell.. good food.. good video montage.. and all.. yup..thanks for all the gifts.. from bingyu, sec2s, sec3s, wilnard and yang en.. thanks to those who had a part to play in this entire farewell.. thank you guys..

nonetheless.. switching back to reality.. i am the most screwed up person arnd.. anyone who can prove me wrong pls approach me..

snap back to reality.. and im facing loneliness all ALONE..