Friday, April 13, 2007
well..it has really been some time since i last blogged... lyk one month already.. haha.. and yup.. looking back.. it has really been one month.. yar..bdae and all.. oh well..
firstly.. i just wonder.. why is my life so screwed up.. izzit smt abt myself that im not aware of.. and even wif ppl telling me i just can't seem to see whats wrong with it? or izzit this world that we live in that is so corrupted and yar..screwed up.. i guess both isnt it.. then again.. life is never fair.. it was NEVER fair..
someone whom u thot cld be a very very good friend to u.. having so many things in common and stuff lyk that.. it really made it seem as though it was going to be a perfect friendship.. and i guess i was the one that screwed it up.. but somehow or rather.. i feel as though an explanation is needed... im just silenced.. why.. u walked away without even telling me in advance..perhaps u did.. but i didnt believe it wld go to that extent.. it's jus lyk smt taken away frm u isn't it.. without even knowing why... it really hurts..
having fewer and fewer ppl to talk to..by the days.. and fewer and fewer ppl closer to u by the days.. is this an indication that i shld start fully concentrating on my work? but where wld be the ppl whom i want to talk to when i just want to unwind and chill off abit.. where wld they be when i just need someone to talk to.. well.. everyone alright..everyone's drifting away.. even the ppl whom i thought i was close to.. or at least close enough to.. they are all jus giving me cold shoulders.. hais...
i just thank God for having a really really good friend..even i dun talk to him really often... but i feel his passion for God.. i am inspired by his words at times.. and every other thing else.. he's there to just hear me out.. and he wld always give me thots and ideas on how he thinks i'll be able to solve my problems.. i guess it's the psychological barrier that i have to break through..
i really pray.. that God will work through me.. to give me renewed strength and wisdom everydae.. and the courage for me to face everything that comes my way.. giving me a new outlook in my life and taking things with a happier and positive attitude..
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
smile more ppl!!!!!! for u will bring abt smiles on the faces of others..
(11:35 PM)