well.. okay.. so im going to malaysia tmr liao le.. sighx.. although it is only for four days.. im really gonna miss the stuff back here.. ppl.. friends.. my bed! muahahas..
anyways.. my eyes are better now.. just that both are still slightly read.. maybe a couple of days later should completely recover lors..
thinking about how my past few days have been.. its lyk im lyk a pig lar.. sleep and sleep and sleep.. sighx.. what to do.. my eyes were liddat.. and all u felt lyk doing was sleep.. sighx.. pig sia.. me.. hahas...
still having alittle bit of emotional struggle now.. especially after sequence after sequence of events keep happening to me.. and honestly.. i really feel alone now.. u guys might think im not alone or smt.. but yea.. its as though im left alone.. dunno why..
i really don't know okay.. on the surface.. u might just think everything's okay wif me.. but actually inside.. many many things are going on within my heart..
I AM gonna continue to apologise.. to everyone out dere.. ESPECIALLY ppl whom are dearest to me.. well.. hope u know hu u r.. besides my family members o' course..
skye.. i really just wish tat u cld hate me.. after all those stuff.. those things that i did to u... i am so certain that i dun deserve ur current feelings towards me.. thats why now.. im wanting u to hate me.. but i still want the best for u..everything.. for u to be happy.. well.. when im away.. u gotta promise me u'll take good care of urself okay.. and yea.. dun forget the agreement that we have come to.. yup.
umm..xiaomei... yea.. i don't know how am i gonna say wat i wanna sae to u.. but its lyk..cannot be described.. sighx.. well.. i really really.. am at a loss of words.. up to now.. u probably still do not know.. that im already going overseas tmr.. but its okay.. can understand... im already no longer as impt as i was.. its okay ya? cos maybe im not supposed to be... when im away.. u gotta take care of urself also.. and... the rest.. i guess i just won't sae it here..
paper crane.. perhaps its only wishful thinking on my part.. that u are even reading this.. or that u would still talk to me again.. some time.. in the future.. i guess the main reason is becos i caused u to lose the love of ur life.. and yea.. much as i would like to take full responsibility.. u told me in ur blog post that u wanna thank me.. which makes me wonder.. why do u say that.. u know.. how much i wish u cld just tell me that u hate me.. and perhaps that wld help me alittle bit.. cos afterall.. i made u lose the love of ur life..and im really sorry...
no amount of description or words can fully express what im feeling now.. all the emotional struggles.. im just about to drown or smt.......... hai...

farewell ppl.. take care..