Saturday, July 01, 2006
well.. have been really busy lately.. SYF opening ceremony was today in the afternoon.. everything went on smoothly.. at least our CI said we did a commendable job.. and im sure our contingent is thankful for that..
in the middle of the parade.. wif the atmosphere and the songs that the choir were singing.. i just suddenly felt lyk i was going to break down in tears.. i seriously dunno why.. am i that emo? den all of a sudden my right eye started twitching so much.. it was so uncomfortable lars.. but after a while it stopped.. den i recalled.. either 1 of my eyes twitching wld mean smt major is gonna happen.. and it has been proven true countless of times.. so i chose to think that indeed smt was gonna happen to me.. after a few occasions and analysis on them, i concluded tat if my left eye twitched.. it wld mean tat something bad is gonna happen.. and if it was my right eye.. it meant tt smt gd was gonna happen.. jus tat i wldnt be able to know wat it is.. until i it really happens or when i find it out later..
after the long standing and waiting.. it was finally our turn to march out of the parade ground.. everyone of us were so relieved that it was all over.. and some were even screaming lors.. ha..when we got back our bags.. i switched on my phone. and i received 2 smses.. both are from my xiaomei-s. apparently both of them were angry at me.. or unhappy wif me.. and it was jus after SYF.. my mood was getting high.. but upon reading the sms frm u.. my heart jus sank.. my mood was utterly crushed.. just wat did i do? tat u suddenly hav this intention.. i thot we were fine all along.. and now u just wanna split.. hv u thot of how i might feel? all the while i tried to make things ur way.. and all the while.. i hv controlled my feelings.. my emotions.. are u even aware of it?
the main purpose of a relationship is for both parties to be able to keep each other happy in one other's company.. and if tt is not happening for u.. den wat is the point in carrying on? it will result in huge unhappiness .. and im sure tats not wat everyone wants in their life..
im just in a huge mess.. im feeling so rotten.. so mixed.. so frustrated.. it's just so screwed up lars.. my life.. everything about it.. sometimes i just wish that i cld drop dead..
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(11:51 PM)