Sunday, May 21, 2006
mann.. after exams are even busier lors.. somehow still wish that exams still carried on lors.. but that wld be bad wun it.. somemore stress... sighx..
guess wat lors.. i failed 2 subjects!!! for the first time in my entire life.. i failed 2 subjects.. and besides.. 1 subject the failing is not sae just failed or anything lors.. its kinda far away frm the passing mark.. sighx.. i really dunno wat happened to myself.. my as well go jump down liao le..
busy with CCA and PB stuff.. head prefect elections coming in 2 days time!!! and we are supposed to give our speech tmr.. pooff.. seriously dunno if i can survive lors.. still have to plan for the farewell of the sec4s.. busy busy busy..
still have some more subjects that gonna get back on monday.. both my maths and languages.. if those never do well enough for my own expectations is lyk can go jump down liao le lorx.. seriously.. i m so disgusted at myself.. thrown all face away liao le.. =(
really looking forward for the june holidays.. haven't been sleeping much the past few weeks lar.. and i can feel so tired inside.. take nap also very difficult to get up after dat.. its lyk the feeling of wanting to sleep forever mann.. sighx... i do need a break.. a good good break.. SIGHX..
later going out for mother's day dinner.. yup..late right.. but its becos we were waiting for 1 of my family members to come back frm overseas so dat we cld go have it together.. gonna eat good food mann.. yay! hahas.. =P
okay.... finally wat ppl have been trying to sae to me made some sense to me.. i hv decided.. that even if it wasn't much of my fault.. or rather it was partially my fault.. i will still have to put the past behind and focus on a new beginning..becos no one is gonna stop and turn back to help u forward.. every1 is progressing on at a fast rate.. and i musn't lose out to them.... i have been in a slumber long enough.. its time to wake up from it.. yup..
from now on.. im gonna look at my life MORE POSITIVELY! i hope.. haha.. at least i try larhs right.. i will take the june holidays as a period of hibernation and reflection of my life the past few years.. and frm term 3 onwards... FULL STEAM AHEAD!!! wait..m i going crazy or smt.. hope not..im serious about this.. yup..
to u.. erms.. u know who u are.. i dun wish to think about wat happened for the past 9 months.. perhaps it was mostly my fault but yet i insisted so strongly that u had more fault.. im really sorrie.. just tell me if u want this friendship to carry on kae.. rmb u said its up to me? sorrie.. i really can't accept tat.. and even so if u dun wish for us to be friends anymore.. its fine with me.. cos i will respect ur decision.. ur decision will ultimately be the wan that u will be happy wif.. wish u all the best in ur future.. i'll still be here for u as ur fren.. and if u need my help in anyway can jus approach me lors kae..
(5:25 PM)