well..
it hasnt been a good time for me...
coming home at ten o'clock on 1 weekday and nine thirty on the other...
and wif so much stuff on my mind.. HPE, NP stuff, emotional setbacks, friendships, tuitions,
there's really no one else whom i can talk to.. but perhaps God..
well.. i do hv some friends whom i can talk to.. but i guess none of them wld fully understand the troubles and stuff im going through right now..
is life really that bad?
it doesn seem as bad 2 me when i see other ppl living their lives so happily & looking so carefree.
what.. is God purposely making life miserable for me so that i'll be tougher in the future?
certain setbacks just affect me lyk for the rest of my or smt..
was i silly to have commit so much into a relationship.. and den get myself hurt..........
was it worth it?
questions are just being left unanswered.. but does she give a care? not lyk it seems so to me..
neither do i want to have certain biased thoughts against her..
but i cant help but think that way becos she is forcing me to think that way..
she spites me by saying certain stuff..
hopefully getting me to hate her..
but it wun work.. not at least fer me...
im just very hurt.. very hurt..
dun anyone of u out there pity me.. i dun need ur pity....
perhaps if u wan.. try to cheer me up?
but let me warn u.. its not easy.. it will never be easy....



sighx.. haven been blogging for quite some time again.. busy marhs.. really busy wif alot of stuff over these few days.. the national cross crountry championships was being held on wednesday this week.. and i got to skip lessons for the whole of that day as i went with the other red shirts to hang banners to support our school.. the banners were so heavy lar! and had to carry them up five storeys somemore.. arms all aching like siao after that.. hanging also took quite some time..and effort too.. sighx.. den we all had chicken rice for lunch.. and afterwhich me and my NCO left early cos we had to go to another place for SYF and NPDP training respectively..
took a bus all the way from turf city to boon lay MRT..afterwhich we changed bus to 172 and arrived at Home Team Academy at 1445.. after changing and stuff.. it was time to start training and we went to our different training grounds.. wahh..after training i just felt so exhausted.. thought i cld just collapse any moment lorr.. however.. on the bus on the way home.. at the same time listening to music.. just felt rejuvenated by a bit.. and when we had dinner together.. it wasn that bad..
by the time came home.. just felt lyk collapsing onto my bed.. took a bath.. and felt much better.. stayed awake a while longer.. before going to sleep..
den the nxt day.. after school had collection of our new uniform and ROD training.. it was quite fun taking the sec2s.. especially when i have had the experience of taking them for the sec 1 orientation drill squad.. so naturally a bit closer to them liao le lors..
have been feeling really distressed lately.. both physically and mentally exhausted.. and when i get reminded of certain stuff.. i just can't help but break down and cry.. i must be the dumbest guy on earth or smt.. sighx..
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