hais.. wif the recent events.. and upcoming events.. and the future looming nearer.. it just gets scarier and scarier as to how time flies.. before everyone knows it.. we wld be young adults liao ler.. hais..
ca papers went and came back.. came back wif lots more red ink.. and obviously.. its because there are more strokes of the red ink.. did quite badly for my CAs.. all average and below.. and was just reflecting on wat had caused my results to dip.. i thought it mus have the great number of things that have really affected me alot recently..
just started on a new tutor.. and he asked me one very good question.. he asked me wat was my aim in life.. and i was stunned at that question.. cos i didn hv one.. i dun even hav an ambition or anything of that sort.. i was just living my life like 1 day by 1 day.. how great a failure can i be? it was at this point in time.. i realised that my life was pointless.. meaningless.. just what was i living my life for?! for myself?
however.. when i m listening to music.. i feel exceptionally far away from all my worries and problems.. and sometimes when i even sing to the music.. my tears cannot help but just flow lar.. i m not afraid to admit that.. everyone cries.. especially when dey are feeling helpless.. and miserable.. and sometimes.. u just hv to cry it all out.. becos bottling up ur emotions wun help.. but cause internal injury..
well.. todae.. woke up at 9.30.. lazed around until 10.30.. den bathed and my father fetched me to piano lesson.. and during the lesson.. i just couldn't help but keep laughing lar.. and i bet i didn't stop laughing until 3 minutes later.. it was becos of some joke that my teacher made from my playing.. cos i wasn't playing that well lar.. and she said it turned out like a chinese song..lol.. but not only because of that that i laughed lar.. got other things also.. but cannot rmb.. and i laughed until stomachache lor..
i very weird right.. mood swing can swing from one end of the galaxy to another.. but it wun be long before the sad thoughts come flowing back to my mind again.. sighx..
will there ever be a light at the end of the tunnel?
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