Friday, March 31, 2006
well.. it has been a bad period for me.. and its going to be a bad period too.. i guess this will be one of the most challenging durations in sec3 life.. where we will be given leadership roles in our CCAs.. and im lyk stuck in between two serious choices.. and i hv yet to arrive at a conclusion.. and at this point in time, my mind is just filled with so much stuff that i think its just gonna explode ler.. i think my computer has reached its limit le lors.. as in im so frustrated and worried over so much stuff.. sometimes u just wonder what other way can u end all ur worries and frustrations in life.... and the solution just flows into mind..
well, SYF training has started todae.. it was rather tiring.. especially being the first training we had, we werent clear of wat was gonna happen to us or wat it was gonna be lyk.. however, it turned out rather well.. just that the weather spoilt our plans.. we couldn't train out in Unity Square.. we had to go to the drill shed behind.. but it did make do...
stress from prefects are settling in too.. head prefect elections are coming up and the seniors are not at all pleased wif the way that our duties were being carried out.. resulting in some of us getting our prefect badges taken away.. it really was hurting to have our badges taken away.. even some of us couldn't hold back our emotions and we cried lors.. yea...
in fact im feeling pressured from all the various sides.. i just dunno how am i gonna cope.. its stressing.. it definitely is.. however i dun feel that some of my friends are feeling that way.. izzit just me or its the environment that i m in?
i just cannot help but feel lyk ending my life.. however dere are ppl around me who are comforting and spurring me on.. i appreciate their efforts.. however, not many can actually understand the situation that im in and can seriously help me..
well, im feeling so mixed and rotten inside.. how i wish someone cld brainwash me so that i cld forget everything.. everything in this world..............
(11:19 PM)