first 2 days of chinese new year over liao le.. had 2 steamboats in 3 days.. so sian liao le.. hais.. den tmr have to go back to school already.. happenings over the past days has made me think and really think what love actually is.. what love might actually mean and the seriousness of love...
dictionary defines the word love as an intense feeling of deep affection or attachment be it for something or someone.. well.. it also depends on how one understands this word.. i daresay that with this word comes a huge responsibility therefore it cannot be abused..

unconditional love: God's love for us is unconditional. He died on the cross for our sins so that our sins could be washed away. A love that is not subject to any conditions....
materialistic love: a love of someone's assets but not person... this could only happen to those who see materials on earth as most important.. but to me.. i find that happiness is the most important in life.. and loving someone of his assets but not of that someone.. is not happiness....
puppy love: well.. some might not know what this is.. its actually love for the fun of loving.. which leads it to nowhere! it will just die down someday.. and in the end, u are just toying wif the other party's feelings..
haha.. i dun exactly know what others there might be.. but looking at just "love" itself, it comes from your parents, your relatives and maybe even your friends. all of which are priceless.. to be able to have someone who loves u is already a gift from God.. or not in any religious context, its your fortune.. love might not necessarily mean possession..to me.. love is giving the person u love more than receiving from the person u love.. and how many of us actually do have that kind of feeling towards someone? besides families and relatives.. friends! and very few people can differentiate from friends of the opposite sex and girlfriends and boyfriends.. to me.. love is seeing the person you love being happy and making him/her happy..
with love comes huge responsibility...his/her happiness will be in your hands.. and many a times alot of us just tend to shirk or even disregard this responsibility... which makes us very irresponsible..
all of the above might have been too much from my point of view.. but yea.. its my point of view so dun take it too harshly..
i wonder why am i saying all this stuff too..
sighx.. to all people out there...... live your life to its fullest.. live it happily.. do things happily.. and u will live happily..
u might think you know whats love.. but lemme tell u..
never underestimate the power and authenticity of love

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woah.. it has really been long since i last blogged.. apologies.. just didn have the time.. busy.. trying to settle down into my new lifestyle in school.. still unbale to.. just very uncomfortable wif it.. its chinese new year in a week's time! haha.. i see it as a financial aid lorr.. yea.. wa.. seriously my life in sch has been no good for me.. its just aint my thing.. thought i had became a happier person ever since the start of 2006.. i m so wrong mann.. it just seems as though there is no light at the end of the tunnel.. feeling disappointed time and time again.. if things are too negative.. u wun even be able to see the positive side of it.. so whats the point in trying to make it seem positive when it is already negative.. and mann.. handling 8 subjects is really not easy larx.. no slip-ups allowed mann.. otherwise u will fall backwards like a landslide...... homework just keep piling up lorx.. as long as one subj teacher give u one piece of homework.. that day u will get alot of homework liao le lorx! & i dun think i hv good family relationships at all lar.. i get pissed off wif my parents quite easily.. and sometimes my sis just sees me as a sore eye... i aint knowing wat kinda life i m living in man.. to think about it carefully.. u think u know a person rather well.. but in actual fact.. u only know that person only on a certain basis.. many ppl do not show their inner most character only till circumstances make them to.. sighx....... i just hope that life will turn for the better soon.. soon...



heya guys.. quite some time since i have not blogged.. wun be able to blog so frequent liao le.. received some restrictions frm my parents.. sighx.. hope all of u guys out there had a good first wk in school.. for me.. nah.. i din enjoy it a single bit.. how to when i dun like my class.. there's only 2 ppl whom i m close to in class.. and now to mention it.. not as close as i thot it was... sighx.. Happy Hari Raya to all... haha.. guess i dun hv much to sae.. except that i got much more cheerful after certain messages frm my friends.. ppl around me.. and frm the message that my pastor gave.... as i hv said before.. happiness is the most important thing in life.. dats wat i feel though.. dunno abt wat u guys think.. i just think that being happy shld be the best thing to do in every single moment of ur life.. trying to adjust to new environments is indeed not nice.. so unfamiliar.. and neither do i like my new life in school.. sighx......................... i suppose thats why my blogskin is the way it is bah.. hahax...

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hahahahhaha.... yesterdae was so fun... when the last few periods came i just couldn't wait for school to end and for weekends to come.. just had so many frustrations over the week.. din enjoy the first week in school at all larhx.. sighx... so so sian.. had lunch in school before making our way out of sch.. waited abt 10 mins for the bus 31 to arrive.. den out of all things tat cld hv happened.. i met some ppl i knew on the bus.. sighx.. so coincidental.... the world's most coincidental thing dat can ever happen.. lol.. den after the bedok mrt bus stop managed to get a seat den i sat wif my fren all the way to his house.. started off at his house wif a lil dai di.. den started doing hw.. for a while.. den decided to go to Century Square cos he wanted to buy a cd.. we cycled there.. so fun lorx.. cos long time no cycle liao le.. den after spending the whereabouts of half an hour in the shop.. we actually came out wif nth! its kinda frustrating lar.. cos he din know wat to buy.. lol.. den he bought ice cream frm mac's den we cycled back home.. after reaching home we decided to play basketball and soccer.. basketball was not bad.. won a few games here and there.. had a one on one wif my fren.. and narrowly won.. as for soccer.. haha.. the fun part was venting my anger on the ball.. ramming here and there.. just happened to find out a new way of venting my anger.. made my way home at 8.. reached home at 8.30.. had dinner and watched tv at nine.. just whiled my time away until midnight den i decided to sleep.. sighx........... woke up at ten the next morning.. lol.. slept for about ten hrs.. so shuang.. make up for the lost hours of sleep over the past week.. after tmr it wld be back to another week of school.. i just dunno how i wld be able to handle the yr 2006.........................



oh mann! its the start of 2006! actually stayed up wif my sister till around 2.30am in the morning.. played boggle together wif my mother and sis.. den carried on playing monopoly.. but my mom din wanna plae so she went to sleep.. tell u lorx.. first ten minutes of the game i got into jail 5 times liao le lar.. so suay lorx.. kena one from community chest.. kena another one from chance.. den three others all land on the go to jail square.. and frm tat obviously i got off to a bad start.. i was losing like siao lar.. kept landing on the areas which my sister bought liao le.. the rent so high wan somemore.. cld feel my money getting lesser lorx.. den i decided to take a gamble.... i built a hotel in addition to the house at both Queen Astrid Park and Nassim Road.. den lo and behold.. she landed there.. the total cost was 44,000 la.. but den i still wasn't confident of winning.. den when counting the money.. result was i won her by a small margin of around 18,000.. so kewl lar.. haha.. den woke up at around 0900.. had breakfast before making our way to church.. just couldn't open my mouth to sing the hymns again.. and during the message.. i just listened and stared into blank space.... den during lunch.. i was feeling so sian.. we reserved the entire second-story of the restaurant for our AG.. Action Group.. hv bible study together wan.. den the kiddies were making so much noise.. adults were chatting away.. can cause a headache wan lar.. luckily had a fren to sms to.. accompanied me all the way till we reached home.. appreciated mann.. den i wrapped my books in the plastic cover.. the books are just getting thicker and thicker by the years siah.. took quite some time wrapping all of them up.. den now my parents just left not long for a wedding dinner.. leaving me and my sister at home.. hv to go opp. to get our dinner.. hais.. i must sae the yr 2006 doesn look appealing at all.. so many tough challenges ahead.. dun even know if can handle wif the number of things in school.. stress... sighx.............................. many things in life.. u can't expect them to be the way u want them to be.. nth can be in ur favour.. and i mean NOTHING... but i realise the most important thing in life.. is H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S... in everything u do.. u must be happy... only den will u do it wif a willing heart.. being happy.. ppl around u will be happy too.... also..... things might not be what u claim them to be.. only by careful analysis and thinking through.. will u be enlightened by wat truly are the facts and wat might just be ur imagination.. hurting other people's feelings are definitely inevitable... its not good to hurt people's feelings too.. derhx.. who likes to hurt the feelings of others.. right? hais.. just have to commit our worries and problems into God's hands.. 2006 also marks a fresh start for me.. the abiding of my self-made policy!!!! muahahhahahahha!!! that rawks mann... no more will i be worried, stressed, confused, faced wif difficulty about BGR anymore.. but of course its not as difficult as saying it.. it involves a lot of perserverance and determination.. strong willpower.. whatever that has happened in the yr 2005.. i m willing to throw them all away.. cos Today Is A New Day!! and wishing all those out there.. A HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and may the year 2006 be a good wan for all of u..