Sunday, December 25, 2005
the worst christmas i've ever had.....
sighx.... wat a christmas i had... slept at the whereabouts of 1.30am on christmas morning after opening my presents.. one was a chess set and i immediately started playing wif my mother.. haha.. and i think i was too eager to win till i made too many mistakes and lost.. lied down on my bed and jus stared up at the ceiling... thinking about wat i was being told.... i supposed it wld come sooner or later bah.. so its better to face it earlier.. but unfortunately it came at the time of christmas and tat totally ruined my festive mood larhx.. dun worry.. am not blaming anyone.. but if there's anyone to blame is myself lorx.. my theory was proven correct once again.. and it seems like only by abiding by my self-made policy will i not get involved in any unwanted stuff again.... being cruel to myself.. but its only for the good of me.. first bitter den sweet as the chinese saying goes.. laid down on my bed at 0130.. but must hv kept tossing and turning till around 0200 plus.. woke up at 8 plus in the morning.. prepared to go to church half an hour earlier before the actual service time cos my parents had to do duty.. ushering and collecting of offering.. and i was dragged in to help out.. den after helping out and service was about to start.. my mother's fren came and sat at our bench lorx.. so my "place" was like kinda taken up.. den when i wanted to sit down my mother actually "shooed" me away to the bench behind us lar.. and plus she did it rather quickly lar.. den the bench behind me actually got someone sitting liao le.. den when that person came dat person looked disappointed lar! so embarrasing.. from den my mood nose-dived.. couldn't bring myself to sing the songs and hymns.. and i dare admit that i wasn't paying much attention to the speaker of todae's message.. after service was fellowship tea in the fellowship hall.. i couldn't help but stand one side and do nth.. jus wasn't in the mood to do anything.. and my parents were rather pissed off by my behaviour.. not wanting to help clear up the used cups into the kitchen.. went to my grandma's house for lunch.. not tat bad.. at least it filled my tummy.. after lunch i had to accompany my cousin in playing of his mother's hp.. den he made me play the space impact until complete lorx.. den i completed liao le hor.. den he snatched the hp away and went to show his mother the high score... and he even said to his mother, "See mommy! i completed the game! so good ah!" lol.. wat 2 do.. jus swallow it lorx.. made our way home around 3.30pm.. arrived home around 4 liao le.. i was so tired.. after i changed out of my clothes i just lied on the bed and blasted some music in my hearing organs.. den slowly slowly before i completely closed my eyes i unplugged and jus closed my eyes.. bu zhi bu jue.. i slept until 6.30 lar.. siao liao.. tonite cannot sleep.. insomnia again.. hais.. can't believe i hv 3 camps this hols.. and as the year 2005 comes to a close... we all dunno what challenges may come our way.. but we will just hv to face it wif confidence and make the best out of it.. again.. take this opportunity to wish all visitors of my blog a Blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year!
(10:15 PM)