Wednesday, November 09, 2005
what a boring day!
i can't believe i spent practically the entire day at home todae! woke up at around 9 plus.. and then played yahoo chess.. had some losses and wins here and there.. after which went offline..watched a bit of tv.. but it was boring so not even 10 min i switched it off.. went to have lunch.. (my grandma brought it) and then had a bath.. came out and played some piano.. hais.. thats about all la.. then later gonna go to my piano teacher's house to hav piano lesson.. afterwhich will go direct to my grandma's house to have dinner as usual.. sighx.. it seems like we are drifting further apart.. izzit really want u claim it to be? or is it an illusionary image on my part? i really dunno and i need someone to enlighten me.. having bad premonitions about LTC.. never ever camped overseas before la.. not knowing wats gonna happen to u within that period of four days.. oh ya.. and last night i dreamt a beautiful dream.. long time never dream liao le.. i was a substitute in my soccer team.. then after 90 mins of gameplay, the match went to extra time.. i was brought onto the pitch to take a free kick on the edge of the penalty area.. i looked at the top corner of the goalpost and saw my manager's desperate face floating at the top corner.. wanting to get the winning goal.. without any further hesitation, i rammed the ball into his "face" but just as the ball reached the goal-line, the "face" vanished and it was a goal!! so cool la.. never dream liddat before.. i guess my holidays are really ruined liao le.. have preparations to make for the end of year camp cos i m given some responsibilities to fulfill as a assistant barrack leader.. and now my barrack leader also away on another camp la.. called the CIC.. Camp Instructors Course.. left me the ABL to do it all alone.. =( have to design ur own cheers la.. come up wif a barrack motto la.. give your barrack a name la.. design our barrack banner and flags.. call all our barrack members up and notify them of the banner painting dates la.. still need to get materials for the banner painting although we got some of them already.. then 15th to 18th Nov is LTC.. then after that even busier wif the preparations for the camp.. then camp 5th -7th Dec.. after which gonna go overseas from 11th to 18th Dec.. come back.. then at least got some breathing space.. one week to christmas.. and soon enough 2006 come liao le.. its kinda scary how time flies so fast.. especially when u look back at one year.. all the fun u had wif ur class... and the thought of having to leave them now is just so painful.. some leave for IP.. others will still remain in VS.. but shurely will be separated.. i guess its all inevitable bah.. i dunno what makes me think that we are drifting further apart.. perhaps its the decrease of the communication between one another bah.. hais.. looking back @ the number of really good friends i have.. doesn't seem alot.. and now with me & another guy still not being able to meet ends wif one another.. i really dunno wats gonna happen to that friendship.. dun even wish to think about it.. but i can't totally ignore that we have yet to bury the hatchet.. i m at a loss.. sometimes after thinking of all those worries that may pull ur confidence level down and ur mood down.. u just wanna break up and cry.. but who's here to lend me a shoulder to cry on.. who's gonna listen to all my troubles? dun wish 2 be too religious here.. yea.. i can only commit them into God's hands..
abandoned... neglected... ignored...
(4:04 PM)