Sunday, January 03, 2010
hey there! long time nvr see my blog liao ler right? LOL.. that's becos smt happened to my blogskin.. and yeah.. it literally crashed.. couldn't see the tagboard at all.. but now it has been revived!
have been wanting to change the skin ever since before 2010 started.. and unfortunately delayed till today.. but oh wells.. better than not getting it done at all! haha..
well my life has changed singnificantly over the past few months.. ever since A levels are over.. and u realise i have been using "my life has been changing" quite frequently in my past few blog posts.. perhaps it's bcos i only blog once in a very very long while now.. but oh wells.. life after A levels have been rather eventful.. and happening maybe? yeah.. going out alot.. spending time with ling.. friends from pri sch.. sec sch and cj.. honestly much time has been spent on catching up with friends... yup..
and one other major thing that happened in my life towards the end of last year.. was me going for yf camp.. getting to know more people.. hoping to integrate more into the youths in my church.. haha.. came out frm camp with an awesome grp of people whom i can call coffee-beaners! cos our grp name is called coffee bean! (=
Christmas was spent with my family members and ling.. having dinner together once opp. my house and once at my house.. whr a huge amount of food was spread and we only managed to finish less than 3 quarters of it.. LOL.. but yeah.. it was a great time of fellowship.. and time spent with relatives, cousins and elders..
New Year was happening! went to our classmate's house for potluck countdown and stayover.. played mahjong and card games.. shared ghost stories.. and played guess the number through the night! haha.. i honestly didn't hav an intention to slp at all.. but somehow still succumbed to lala land's call at 7plus in the morning due to some reasons.. lol..
well after 2009 has come to an end and 2010 has started.. i guess the transition of it all really makes me wonder what it really means to go into a new year.. new commitments? new beginnings? i guess it really is all scary to think about the future.. but how are u going to progress on if you're not going to envision yourself in the future ya? ahh well..
and i guess the one last thing that i need to say.. im going into NS soon! gotta get myself ready.. hahaha.. XD
(10:20 PM)
Sunday, September 27, 2009
it has been a REALLY long time since i last blogged.. and it was on friday that i told myself i need to update my blog over this weekend.. or i doubt i wld be able to blog anymore until the end of As.. which wld be quite a tragic thing..
........
honestly.. i just don't know where to begin.. so much has happened.. so much to say.. well lets just talk from the fact that prelims are over.. although they are over.. it doesn't really feel like it's over.. well needless to say that it's due to the fact that it just translates to a vision of A levels drawing even nearer.. or maybe it's just having to face getting back the results and look at them stare back into your face.. and wham.. u get smacked in the face.. the week after prelims.. getting back of a few results here and there.. but nt having gotten back the scripts to actually check the marks.. well.. it can be quite anticipating.. but yet it can be quite dreadful..
thankful for a grp of friends whom i can meet up and engage in meaningful and joyous conversation.. taking my mind away from studies.. and stuffs.. that gathering was indeed a breather for me..
mankind has one very powerful weapon.. and weapon here could have both positive and negative implications to it.. but yeah.. that weapon is a smile.. it could brighten up someone's day.. it brings people to a more personal level.. and more imptly.. it enables people to be more willing to relate to u.. (well thats what i personally feel.. u can't expect someone to talk to u if u are all frowning and sulking right?) thats the harsh reality of this world.. we all move at such an amazing pace.. our lives just revolves around ourselves.. like how many people are going to stop and look around to see if anyone's being left behind.. few and far between.... and so back to smiling.. it cld be a weapon used to your advantage.. but what happens if u use it wrongly? or even worse.. with a wrong intention? a smile to others should only and solely be a true reflection of your own feelings towards others.. it shouldn't be something that is forced.. neither should it be a routine.. or smiling wld have lost its meaning.. but it's true isn't it.. everyone tends to put on a front.. pretend that everything is fine.. and beam so widely at the slightest of things.. but all these fronts are only going to make the world a more deceptive place.. then again.. it's how you would interpret a smile isn't it? i guess everyone smiles.. whether it be a true reflection of our current emotion.. or in a momentary outburst of happiness.. but some smile to hide their weak self.. they just simply refuse to show to others what they truly are.. and all these arise because of fear... fear of being looked down upon.. fear of losing the closest people around you.. fear of having to face disappointment to the very simplest of hopes you place in yourself..
but is this tatamount to deceiving? when will the world be genuinely true? true to itself.. and true to everyone around..
it is only in our weakness that we find a source of strength.. for if we are nt weak.. we wouldn't know what it means to be strong.... but are we going to admit that we are weak and work towards being strong.. or act as though we are strong but in actual fact we are all frail and weak inside..
it's interesting to see how LOVE could bring 2 people together.. but it would be tragic to see a couple so loving fall out with each other..
it's interesting to see how TRUST is built and maintained between friends.. but sad to see how it cld be lost and perhaps never regained again..
it's time to forget our differences.. no point harping on differences as it would only strike a distance between u and everyone around.. work together towards compromise.. although u can NEVER be someone who is well-liked and approved by everyone, always bear in mind the fundamental instincts of humans which is also widely demonstrated in animals.. (we are afterall animals) we need to relate, co-exist, interact..... we need one another.....
lets solve our differences in peaceful conversation.. lets put aside our differences and move on from how far we have come..
(8:13 AM)
Monday, June 01, 2009
hey all!
just thought of reviving my blog..
LOL.. quite funny huh..
after it has been dead for close to 3 months?
oh and i didn't even know there was this monetize thing that came up on blogger..
anyone want to enlighten me on that? haha..
so....
i guess it's just me again.. i mean like.. yeah.. whats there else to say?
life's changing.. and i mean immense changing.. it's just becoming weird i must say..
june holidays are here.. but what else is near? MID-YEARS!
ha! bet u didnt see that rhyme coming.. or perhaps you did..
okay.. alot has been happening to me obviously..
it's like there's no time to pause and think back at what has been happening..
or perhaps i don't put in the effort to make time for tt..
i can't exactly describe so much that has been happening..
amongst family.. friends.. school.. studies.. church..
and just when u think that your life is described in 5 words.. there's like so much more to it..
MUCH MUCH MORE!
wait.. is that a good or bad thing? (as commonly asked by someone)
well it can be a good and a bad thing.. isn't it?
but you should prefer one of the 2?
then again wld preferring mean anything to you?
sometimes you just wish for your life to be as simple as 5 words..
but think again..
how wld you feel like if your life was so uneventful?
and empty?
are we going to just shun away?
*shrug*
if you guys have noticed.. not the usual way i type my posts.. im becoming weird! haha XP
then again.. maybe not?
(7:00 AM)
Thursday, March 19, 2009
with this post, my blog will be brought to life once more.. after being covered with cobwebs, spiderwebs, dust and etc etc..
well.. just celebrated my bdae about a week ago.. and i am glad i spent it with people who meant alot to me.. especially YOU (= wishes from family and friends.. reali appreciate everyone's well wishes.. although it wasn't exactly a good day for me and for everyone.. chem common test paper was on tt very day! so tell me what kinda celebration was that.. perhaps it was a good time of sharing and interaction with classmates after chem paper over lunch at carls jr.. discussing chem qns simultaneously.. hahas.. but then leh.. all in all.. the paper wasn't too good.. oh wells.. "move on" are the two words that will echo in my head..
march holidays are here! but yet it doesn even feel like holidays.. monday and tues was at science camp.. lots of things learnt and experienced from the camp.. and imagine me dragging myself to piano after camp.. lol.. wasn't feeling exactly tired.. more of lyk the worn out kinda feeling and just nt wanting to do anything kinda feeling.. but nonetheless still successfully survived.. wednesday went back to school for guitar practice.. and a rather long wan at that.. lol.. hardly have time for myself nw.. let alone time with friends and etc.. but am still very thankful for the dinner at a jap restaurant last sunday with kevin, wei en, kang ming, daniel and zhi chao.. and the present.. (=
well.. i don't reali know how to go about talking abt smt tat i want to talk abt.. just going to see how it goes.. if anyone noticed.. the title of my post is lyk somewhat weird.. okay.. not because that very word is in the title.. but it's nt smt that u wld usually see.. as my blog title at least.. can't reali pinpoint when it all started.. but i guess most probably at the start of this year and as it began to progress more into 2009.. i just feel this sudden weird feeling engulf me.. as though everything's changing.. and then again.. perhaps feeling is nt the appropriate word to use here.. it's more like a perpetual mindset that is gradually instilling inside me.. it's like somehow what someone said to me while walking into sch.. he said it's feeling weird.. and then it suddenly struck me.. even a few weeks ago.. i met someone else in the toilet and he said it seems lyk i changed.. and dats when it struck me too.. cld one possible reason for all this be because i hav celebrated my bdae quite recently? hormonal changes? lol.. seriously dunno.. it's lyk u never felt this way before.. and it puzzles u..
emo no more? perhaps much less as compared to my past.. i would sae i still emo.. but is it still a routine? i myself do not know..
(10:11 PM)
Saturday, January 03, 2009
okay.. look at my post title.. and im serious.. those 5 words were actually wat came out at first.. lol! i think got smt wrong wif me ler..
first of all.. Happy New Year to one and all! i do know my post has come in lyk 3 days plus late ler.. so yes yes.. dun go on suanning.. im nt someone who's that hiong abt blogging.. well.. but i used to be.. i rmb one period of time i practically blog everyday la.. dunno wat happened to tt side of me ler.. i guess there's lesser time now to do tt too anyways..
how did u guys spend the new year? well.. i definitely spent it much with my family members.. loved ones.. and im rly honoured to spend it wif u! esp. into the counting seconds of 2009.. (= appreciate u spending it together wif me.. XD
have actually been blog hopping a few.. and it did occur to me.. how come ppl actually write new year resolutions.. of course dey wld b doing that in a bid to become a better person i suppose? to aim higher.. and to constantly improve oneself.. for me.. i guess i'll try to b as realistic as possible.. or are they meant to b realistic in the first place? (no offence to everyone else out dere)
firstly.. i rly want to be able to set my priorities out right.. definitely my spiritual walk with Him.. is something that i reali need to focus on.. dats first and foremost.. to walk in His path.. and to stay close to Him.. refresh.. renew..
secondly.. appreciate all my loved ones around me.. those who make a significant difference in my life.. just by being in my life.. and of course nt forgetting everyone else arnd me.. just be there........
hang on.. are resolutions meant to b lyk that? or are dey meant to b more physical.. i guess they are all the same.. so next.. STUDY HARD! for A levels! rly wan2adopt a whole new mindset towards my studies now..
and finally.. spend less money.. or rather dun spend unnecessarily.. rly wan2concentrate on saving up.. esp. after noticing how poor i am.. haha.. someone wld know why.. of course.. occasions where we shld jus spend.. den spend lor. yup.. but of course nt extravagantly..
ohh ohh.. and finally+1!!! be less emo.. dun rly wish to elaborate more on that..
May the year 2009 be a blessed one for all.. stay happy.. stay cool! and all the best in all your endeavours!! (=
(11:34 PM)
Thursday, December 25, 2008
lol! certainly hope my post title stands for a long long time..
have reali been unable to update my blog for a very long time..
and to think i was thinking abt posting abt batam trip.. nz trip.. and the so many other things that happened..
whew.. reali dunno if i can even bring myself to do that now..
but first..
Merry Christmas
to ALL!!!
right now.. it's christmas! a time for happiness.. joy.. giving and blessing..
spent alot of time shopping.. outside.. and hence feeling guilty for hardly touching my work..
oh wells..
just met ty today.. and his $2 haircut is cool! hahas.. exchanged presents and walked around city hall area.. shopping.. well i did more of the shopping and so.. paiseh.. had to drag him around.. lol..
anws.. this year.. christmas is rather different frm me.. rly reflecting on the friends around me.. how much they have made a difference in my life.. and hence i'm giving more presents away this year! much thanks for those who hv stood by me.. and u shld know who u are.. ((=
will i rly go post the whole nz trip.. i still contemplating.. feeling reali lazy ya.. and it's nt exactly that short a trip too.. pictures.. on facebook bah..yupp..
do hope i will stay closer to my blog as of now.. feel lyk i rly neglected it too much ler.. *sayang sayang* lol.. okay.. signing off for now..
my reason for staying up till this hour.. is for u..
(1:23 AM)
Thursday, November 20, 2008
it has been reali long since i last posted..
and i keep thinking and thinking of updating.. and i know of the things that i want to update abt.. but now when i plant myself into the blogging mode.. suddenly my mind blanks out to an extent..
okay.. this is one part in which i rmb.. ever since wat was lyk 3weeks ago or smt.. i must say that the world is reali small.. meeting ppl here.. meeting ppl dere.. and best of all.. 1S02 ppl! ((= first it was yang outside century square.. and i was carrying boxes.. for pw OP.. so unsightly la.. and oh ya! thats what i wan2blog abt too.. lol.. okay.. anyways.. den it was xy.. at tampines mall mos burger at basement 1! i was eating dere.. but she was taking away cos dere weren't any more seats.. and we chatted for quite abit... and finally it was the knees..=P but where else but j8.. it's most of the time there that i wld meet her.. and she looked quite different! from all the canoeing trainings and all.. and these 3 meetings.. they were reali quite equally spaced out among each other.. and they all happened just when i was thinking back at going out wif 1S02 ppl.. so it reali was quite amazing..
but reali alot has been happening.. loads and loads of stuff on my mind.. and everyone is so caught up wif their own lives.. schedules and commitments.. that reali makes it difficult for us to arrange a common time to meet.. and shawn cld leave me wif that responsibility of arranging an outing.. lyk thx lor! hardly hear things frm ppl liao ler.. and yeah.. it's reali nt tt easy..
it reali wld b quite lag to talk about this right now.. but i think i still wld.. to me.. OP was a great success to me.. disregarding any thing that might discourage this statement.. okay.. perhaps nt great success.. but yeah.. success.. it ended off nicely.. and im rather proud of my grp.. CJ092! much as tho there were plenty of rough patches that we had to go through together.. the amount of effort we put in.. sleepless nights.. blood.. sweat.. tears.. they are all jus a part of us.. we went through thick and thin as much as we cld together.. and im reali thankful and appreciative of all efforts that were put in together into this entire project.. putting aside everything that happened b4 op.. let's just talk about op.. come to think of it.. each of us contributed to our op significantly in our own ways.. let's jus begin wif donny.. the whole video is lyk his own effort.. wif some help frm joy in the beginning of cos.. and yeah.. he's reali good wif the video aspect.. and joy.. wif her artistic talents.. props.. drawings.. yeah.. weifeng.... has wacky and interesting ideas.. cheers the grp up along wif joy when either of them jus gets high for some unclear reason.. and as for km.. the skit.. he's the director.. and he's very much the dramatic wan of our grp.. doing a great job in his role in the skit.. having to demean his self-esteem.. haha.. all in all.. it reali was cool.. everyone did what dey cld.. it's smt lyk everyone had their area of expertise.. wld just lyk to express my heartfelt thanks to cj092.. thx for being such a wonderful and cooperative grp.. ((=
and so the next big thing was the guitar seminar on the 17th.. it was quite an eye-opening seminar.. learnt quite alot of useful stuff.. but one thing nt to forget is the amt of trouble we took to get there lor.. having to ask directions frm all sorts of ppl.. and nt jus dat.. getting contradicting replies as well.. lyk completely weird lorr.. in the end.. keith to the rescue.. who confirmed wif us the direction and which stop to alight.. lol.. met 2 ppl whom i didn reali expect to meet there.. excluding one whom i alr knew i was going to meet.. lol.. i met matthaeus and marvin.. it was reali a small world! lyk one frm my own church and the other whom i got to know through km's cell.. simply amazing.. after which it was back to sch to put down the footstools which we didn need to use at all.. and in the end we didn need any scores as well! so happy i lightened my load.. went down to city hall to meet a few others and we had dinner together at shokudo! and it was wat they called guitar outing 001.. lol.. had a fun time dere.. talking to each other.. eating.. and jus hanging out together.. u know how it all falls into place.. =)
then the next day.. it was extra practice for guitar and we ordered in mac as a rare treat for ourselves.. lol.. lyk suddenly guitar ppl bcome rich or smt.. but apparently not the case.. and so the fries were all mixed together.. no straws.. and no sauces.. yup.. dat wan.. i neglected it... so yup.. paiseh..
not to forget 1T21 chalet and 6/1 chalet! those 2were reali stuff tt kept me busy for practically the whole week.. lol.. didn't stay over on both nights for 21 chalet.. cos we had guitar practice in the morning and it wld b rather mafan to carry it.. so yup.. second night i stayed though.. got only abt 3 hrs of slp.. yep.. but i cldn't expect more.. first day wasn't reali dere much.. just know that they played soccer.. and went overnight cycling.. the bbq was a bit messy cos we underestimated the amount of food.. and den we overestimated.. lol.. second night by the time we reached dere was rather late.. held back by collecting my new passport and rain.. yeah... weather was horrible.. lol.. played wif sparklers and party poppers at the park.. sat and emo-ed at the breakwater for awhile.. before heading back to the chalet.. intended to watch the sunrise on the last morning.. but when we walked out of the chalet.. it was lyk gonna rain.. wif lightning flashing all over the place.. so we didnt wan2take the risk.. had breakfast at the nearby foodcourt while the rest was still sleeping lol.. but cldn't blame them.. guess dey didn't slp much the prev night..
and so after packing up and all.. me and km moved over to 6/1 chalet.. lol.. 2consecutive chalets.. or rather dey did overlap.. so i stayed on the last night there as well.. but due to the little number of ppl.. i think it wld hav been more fun.. we played burnout/dynasty warrior etc on hx's ps2.. and we mahjongged quite crazily.. altho it definitely wld hav gotten more crazy.. but bcos i definitely needed rest otherwise i sure die during practise the nxt morning.. and true enough i nearly did.. i guess the most memorable thing was the bbq.. we had so much fun cooking.. playing wif food.. lyk lol.. yeah.. we shldn't.. but we honestly had too much.. we had fun experimenting potatoes.. we wrapped dem in aluminium foil and literally put them over and around the burning charcoal.. and haha..only 3 survived wif nice colour.. much thanks to hongyi who booked the chalet and went through efforts to get this organised.. and pinhui huaxin deejee and justin.. who made my night there a pleasant and enjoyable wan.. jus abit wasted didn go on the first day and get to see all e old frens.. reali miss u guys alot! (=
now perhaps the more impt things on my mind now are the ocip and guitar stuffs.. sometimes jus can't help but drift off into emo-ness.. and if any of u know how emo-ing is lyk.. u jus let yourself sink deeper and deeper..
and dere i wld find myself struggling to pull myself up.. and efforts wld b futile cos im lyk entirely overpowered.. but yeah.. it wld jus take time for me to snap out of it..
to end off my post.. jus a few verses frm the bible..
"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable and perfect, will of God... " Romans 12:2
"Not that I speak in respect of what I want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state that I am, therewith to be content" Philippians 4:11
(12:11 AM)